Why Me?

Hey, my name is Jeremy, and welcome back to another episode of "A Day in the Life of Jeremy!"

1. "It is easy to hate and it is difficult to love. This is how the whole scheme of things works. All good things are difficult to achieve, and bad things are very easy to get."

I despised you for doing that to me,

But in actual fact I despised myself,

For not being there for you,

When you were calling for help,

I stand and stare.

I'm in awe that it happened to me,

But in actual fact I'm not ready for what's coming,

Days, weeks, and months go by,

I missed countless opportunities.

I am desperate to be in love with you again,

The time with me has expired,

Because I took too long to heal myself,

I ended up breaking your heart.

I blamed everyone that put me in this crappy place,

But in actual fact I should be appreciative for what I have,

Yet I take everything for granted,

And think what is mine will be mine,

What a confident cocky bastard I am.

I hated my life,

But in actual fact I'm still in a grief pain of my past self,

I fought my own wars,

You were there to help me, to build me,

I'm sorry that I dragged you along the vicious war,

You are in a better place and I've ended your sorrows.

I made people laugh,

Loved to see people's smile,

I was happy outside,

Not the inside,

Had been crying on the inside,

Had a mission to find me,

Yet I ended up hurting loved ones along the way.