A Day In The Life of Jeremy Chen Jin Wei

Hey, my name is Jeremy, and welcome back to another episode of "A Day in the Life of Jeremy!" Oftentimes, I've neglected to be the best version of myself because I'm too fixated on fixing the best version for somebody else. Never not once I'm realizing that I'm damaging myself inside to soothe everyone else. My own thought process is that if you're happy with my actions that I'm "faking", then I'll be happy with whatever outcome there is. Looking back to those messages that did not mean anything at that point in time but somehow it correlates with what I'm doing right now and it's painful to hear that somebody that I only met 2 or 3 months, can spot what's wrong with me.

 Hey, my name is Jeremy, and welcome back to another episode of "A Day in the Life of Jeremy!" After 365 days comes a new year where everyone has their resolutions planned and most of the people did not have it planned and that's okay. Every year is a new beginning to start something worthwhile. You can still be you but in an upgraded form. Every year is a year that is near to your death. So, do what you would want to do for the rest of your life. If playing games with your friends bring such a joyous moment to you, keep doing that. Choose happiness rather than regret. I have no regrets whatsoever. I keep doing things that would mean so much to my future that I know I'd regret if I didn't go for it.  People won't care for you and that's fine because that's how the world works. Well, you either change it or follow it. You can't change the world with the current situation you're in because you're not that of an "important" person ye...

Hey, my name is Jeremy and welcome back to another episode of "A Day in the Life of Jeremy!" It's about time for another blog post! (many had drafted, hehe) Today the topic is very straightforward, The healing process from the fuckups I have made, And it's about time to learn those fuckups. There's a reason why it keeps repeating the same thing, That feeling was so strange but I felt it, can't describe it but hope you get it, It's because I have not learnt from my past and I brought it to the present, I will not bring those fuckups to my future. The process of healing,  The affirmation that I'm just a human, The confidence I have in own self, It's difficult but I questioned God every time, Why does it have to be me and how could someone bear this shit, I came to a point where I've mentally damaged all my loved ones (xgfs), And I'm proudly saying that I'm sorry for whatever happens to y'all, It's great having you in my life and t...

Hey, my name is Jeremy, and welcome back to another episode of "A Day in the Life of Jeremy!" "It is easy to hate and it is difficult to love. This is how the whole scheme of things works. All good things are difficult to achieve, and bad things are very easy to get." I despised you for doing that to me, But in actual fact I despised myself, For not being there for you, When you were calling for help, I stand and stare. I'm in awe that it happened to me, But in actual fact I'm not ready for what's coming, Days, weeks, and months go by, I missed countless opportunities. I am desperate to be in love with you again, The time with me has expired, Because I took too long to heal myself, I ended up breaking your heart. I blamed everyone that put me in this crappy place, But in actual fact I should be appreciative for what I have, Yet I take everything for granted, And think what is mine will be mine, What a confident cocky bastard I am. I hated my life, But in...

Hey, my name is Jeremy, and welcome back to another episode of "A Day in the Life of Jeremy!" |Take your time to realize this guys. It's fucking mind-boggling to me at least.| 1. Have you treated your girl the same way you would want to be treated? What I meant by this is that I've been so fixated on monetary aspects because this has installed in my mind since the birth of hence I did not treat her the way I would want me to treat myself. It means that buy her a rose, would mean a lot to me (as would she too). Treat her to ice cream (because that's her favorite), a boba tea (it won't cost much, to be frank). Don't do it because you would want to impress the shit out of her and after that left her hanging and wondering why he never acted like that anymore?. It creeps me out when I overthink (always do) about this situation and I've made tons of mistakes and I would forgive myself all the time for that but for this, I don't think I'll ever forgiv...

Hey, my name is Jeremy, and welcome back to  an other episode of "A Day in the Life of Jeremy!” It’s crazy how I’ve been dumped by my ex-girlfriend and I’ve dumped my ex-girlfriends before. In the reality check, both of the experiences are fucking a-hole and literally, no one should experience such dreadful moments. I can’t express it by words but this concept comes into play when your emotional , physical and spiritual are fucking you up sideways and you feel a tons load of shit. And..I feel like a shit now. I hurt so many people that truly loved me. Yes, people come and people go. But, they don’t have to go if you made them felt like home at the very fucking first place.  Frankly speaking, loved ones will stay if you let them in to your life. Im at a stage where I wish I could turn back time and redeemed myself that I am the one for you. But life doesn’t work like that, do they? I’m kind of lost (generally in life right now) and I don’t know what else I can do to handle this...

Hey, my name is Jeremy, and welcome back to another episode of "A Day in the Life of Jeremy!" I believe that relationship is built over a period of time. I believe that trust is built over a period of time. I believe loyalty is built over a period of time. These three are priceless, Break one, you'll lose three of them. What else is built over a period of time? Comment down below on your thoughts of things that are priceless.